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Iba yung pakiramdam ng dati mo nang alam sa ngayon mo pa lang nalaman. 

Bagal daw kasi

*me, looking at my friend’s fb*
Me: HUHU Ateeee, girlfriend ni Y***i:(((( *shows ate the picture* parang mas maganda pa ‘ko? Hahaha (joke lang)
*dad, sumingit*
Dad: HUHU wawa naman kuting ko, wag ka mag-alala bili kita mamayang ice cream. Magnum gusto mo? Hahaha
Ate: Yan kasi, bagal bagal mo pakipot. Bahala ka.

O.O Loka loka ng kapatid ko. Ano yun ako pa manliligaw=))

Alcohol ka ba? Germs kasi ako at 99.99% na patay na patay ako sayo.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA nakita ko lang sa facebook. Sorry natawa ako. K. Bye.

First post I read this morning, and it’s about lady gaga. I don’t want to speak out about her but this just got me. 

So this post is about lady gaga, being an illuminati so she’s protested to be banned in the philippines. Then, this guy posted that she prays at the backstage of her every tour, created a foundation against bullying, celebrated thanksgiving day with children from a catholic school, raised money for earthquake victims, and joined MAC to support people living with AIDS. Cool stuff, right? Makes one think she’s a good person, a sympathizer, a helping hand. But then again, Titus 3:5 says that we are not saved by good works but by the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

So what if she kneels on the backstage of her tour? How sure are we that she’s talking to Jesus, when she even disgraced the symbol of the catholic church (the rosary) in one of her songs? Don’t get me wrong, but I really think that she’s promoting satanism with her music videos. And I don’t get it why she has to modernized the 12 disciples and Jesus in again, one of her music videos, when the act doesn’t really have to do anything with the song. 

I know I’m not the perfect person to say this ‘cause me too, are committing mistakes and fails everytime, but never have I, in my entire life, tried to mock God by reenacting what happened in the bible at the same time disgracing it. People would say that I am one of the haters. I think no. I just don’t want the Philippines to hear more of her Satanic music. If people would just realize it, they would also think what my friend thinks, “Who wants to watch an Illuminati anyway?” I want her to be saved, too. And only God can do that. Only God can change her. And if it is true that she sold her soul to the devil, I think God is more powerful than that to save her and give her a new life. 

Will it ever be possible?

What ifs. Lots of it. I have lots of it.

I’m aware that there’s always this time of the month when I become moody as ever, and if I start my day waking up on the wrong side of the bed, I’m sure it will end my day in a bad mood. I notice even the littlest things and make a fuss about it. No matter how hard I try to avoid it, if you get started with me in the morning, you’re getting no good thing from me all day long. 

How can some people be so insensitive? I mean, yes, at times I am insensitive too, but there are really some people whose lives won’t go on without being like that. It’s like it’s their daily dose of satisfaction-to make other people suffer from harsh words, harsh actions, or even neglect. Come on. 

Sometimes, I would just like to shout out loud that you don’t need to pretend you care, ‘cause even though you prepare me breakfast in the morning, you won’t change the fact that you’re emotionally damaging me and even though your words are not harsh, the coldness in it is not suitable for a livable environment. But, if you happen to really not care, can I bear that? I think it will be worse than the coldness you’ve shown. I think it would just break me more. 

Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating. Maybe I’m just having these bad vibes all over and you say words that people in this situation like me wouldn’t want to hear. Maybe I’m just too sensitive at the moment that your simplest words appear as an insensitive one to me. I’d like to think this way. But…

What about tomorrow? What about the days when I am not really having bad vibes yet you start to throw those nags and make me feel like so off I would just want to spend my days outside and not talk to you anymore?

If that could only happen, if I could just live away from this, I think I’ll feel better. But again, there’s no certainty in it. I’m always dependent on you. If I would live away, it would just make me feel guilty because I have this hidden wrong feeling about you that I’m afraid to voice out. 

Can I say this to you? Now I know why my sister looks as strong as she is. You might say that she’s selfish and likes to do things on her own, but now I understand her. I’m not sure if I’m right, but you are the sole reason behind it. You made her grow with the sermons, making her look forward to her goal, yet there’s one thing you lack to provide along with it-the most special ingredient-love. Do you know why she won’t ever say ‘I love you’ to you in person? It’s because you made her too strong that saying that in your face would make her feel weak. 

I wish I’m just really overthinking things. 

I wish I was just misunderstanding you. Really. I wish it was just this time of the month when I misinterpret things, exaggerate its intentions and whatsoever…

And I, I’ll take you to another world ‘cause I, I couldn’t love another one ‘cause you, you make me feel like I’m intoxicated.

I feel so great for my friend. Thank God. He got out of trouble already and is on his way to making the alternative possible. The thing is, I was wondering if I would see the same good thing when that situation happened to me… :( Would they hush me too when, let’s say, I get kicked? Would they say that it’s okay? Would they let me in the house again? :(

Seriously? That’s the only thing you can do for me and yet you succumb to unimaginable greed. I hate you